Stockholm Syndrome

She looked up from her spot on the floor. She could only see out of one eye due to the blood dripping into her other. He was standing over her snarling. He stormed into the bedroom as she cowered on the floor in the other room.
She dragged herself into the bathroom where she slumped over the toilet and bled into the water. She shouted on him "Gary, Gary I don't feel well." She thought she was losing conciousness. She was losing too much blood. "Gary! Gary. I'm no well!" She was confused, normally by this time he had calmed down and would be overly nice. It confused her that he hadn't come through yet. She must have really pissed him off. She was scared, she thought she was going to lose him either because he was really mad at her this time or because she was going to die. The toilet water now had so much blood in itthat not only did it look the colour of blood also the consistency. Her head hurt, she could feel her pulse in her temples. "Gary, I diny feel too good!" She cried knowing he was in hearing distance but wasn't coming to her rescue.
She sobbed as she pulled herself up by the toilet seat - not caring about germs - and dragged herself into the bedroom. "Gary" She gret. Eyes half closed she stumbled into the room where she sat down on the bed beside him. He grumbled as she almost sat on his leg. "Gary" she cried "I'm no well."
"Huh? What?" he said as he awoke. She cried in the relief that he hadn't been ignoring her, he'd been sleeping. The distraught look on his face said it all. He did love her. He looked so worried that she was crying and bleeding. The first thing he did before anything else was cradle her in his arms. "Shh, It's ok buba" he soothed as he stroked her hair. "You'll be ok buba. Don't cry." He continued to cuddle her as he helped her up and took her through to the livingroom. He gently sat her down on a chair. "I'll get you a glass of water baby." She sat in the chair sobbing. He brought her a cold glass of water and some headache tablets. He wasn't all bad she thought as he acted the perfect boyfriend. She didn't think it was acting at all, she thought it was the real him.

Our Baby

I smelled you there,
but you were gone.
You left me there,
I was alone.
Except my baby,
was here with me.
Until he died,
then it was me.
I slept for months,
and drunk and fought.
Until one night,
I was distraught,
and there you were,
you had come back.
I had to tell you,
our baby was gone.
You held me for hours.
You kissed my head.
I cried and cried,
our baby was dead.
I'm sorry I killed him,
It wasn't my fault.
My body, My enemy,
I did nothing wrong.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I can't take it back.
But I need you to know,
that I it wasn't an act,
of revenge or rebellion.
It was an accident,
I didn't mean it,
I needed him.
Now that you're back,
I can't let you go.
and next time im offered,
a drink I promise I'll say no.

Loved & Lost

This is a video of everyone that has ever been important in my life. Probably most importantly of all my Auntie Nell who we lost in September 2009 to cancer, She was a brilliant lady and is sorely missed. Also featured in this video or my Mum, Dad, Nan and Grandad who play the biggest parts in my life and are more important to me than anyone in the world.

People that I know are missing from this video are Iain Morris, Greg Henderson, Sarah Archibald, Sarah "Billie" Henderson, Colin Grieve & Scott Parrett. I didn't have any photos of these ninjas but I have used Colin and Scotts music to make them feel special. Anyone else that is missing im sorry, it was not done to spite you <3


So to the people I love, the people I have lost and the people I am yet to meet, thank you and Enjoy! <3

Chloe Chaotic Vlog Number Three

Here is the third in my series of vlogs. Number 3 is a little different it has a little more structure. It's all about piercings. This was done late at night and I made a few editing mistakes so I'm upoloding the corected version. Also Happy Birthday to my very good friend Dean latimer, I love you <3 Enjoy! <3

Chloe Chaotics Second Vlog

So here is, what you've all been waiting for, the 2nd in my series of vlogs. Not very interesting but what can you expect from someone that hasn't been out of the house for three days? I go into great detail about my friend saying I'm not punk enough anymore and I also get all school girly over Nick Wheeler, I blame Gill for that. Enjoy!

Two Sides To Every Story

Living in Scotland during the world cup is a nightmare! Scotland spend god knows how long slagging the English and the English act all inoccent and hurt. Despite this being a complete pain in the arse the whole mess actually got me thinking. There is, in actual fact, two sides to every story! The scottish have been critisised for their "Anyone But England" tshirts sold in Scottish music stores. However a friend of mine pointed out a tshirt online that read "SNP, Scottish Not Playing." This begs the question who is the victim and the answer is . . . no-one. The ye old saying two wrongs don't make a right really comes in to play here and I urge everyone to just grow up a little. I was born and bred in Scotland but my whole family are English so who am I to support?

This "Two Sides" theory most definatly applies to most prejudices. I mean young people discriminate the elderly but the elderly discriminate teens. "Chavs" discriminate "Goths" but "Goths" discriminate "Chavs". Other races are the same, people complain about being picked on ans singled out but most of them do exactly the same to another race. I'm not claiming to be perfect, I am guilty too but I urge you to think about who you're slagging off and who might be slagging you back. Just think about it is all I ask.

Chloe Chaotic's First Vlog

Ok so aswell as trying to keep up-to-date with my blogging I have also started vlogging which realy shows a side of me that should probably be locked up. Here is my first vlog after watching Blade376 give advice on how to make a good vlog. I was at a bit of a loss as to something to talk about so I decided to promote my friends clothing line Honour Over Glory. So take a peek and Enjoy and also check out Toms stuff at

Race For Life 2010

I haven't posted anything in ages but I felt it necessary to inform you all of the Race For Life event I took part in. I raised over £270 for Cancer Research so I thought I'd show you guys the video of the event!



Also you can still sponsor me if you have any spare cash. Cheers guys <3

Why Hello There Miss Newton!

I have recently entered in the world of tattoos. Unfortunalty I have discovered that it is equally as addictive as body piercing and also more expensive! My first tattoo I got is on my ankle, it's a newt, due to my surnmae being Newton. My next tattoo is due to be a memorial to my Auntie, who we lost in September 2009, and it will be a japanese style elephant. I have many more planned but no money to fund them. I look forward to getting more tattoos very soon.

My Challenge

Ok so there has been a distinct lack of blogging for a very long time now. However I am back with an update on the challenge I set for myself. I am now officially 18 years old and I have 19 piercings. Unfortunatly I must admit the last two I got were at the same time and this ws before my 18th birthday. This means that yes I succeded in gettin 18 before my birthday but I did not succeed in having only 18 while being 18. Still a win I think.