Our Baby

I smelled you there,
but you were gone.
You left me there,
I was alone.
Except my baby,
was here with me.
Until he died,
then it was me.
I slept for months,
and drunk and fought.
Until one night,
I was distraught,
and there you were,
you had come back.
I had to tell you,
our baby was gone.
You held me for hours.
You kissed my head.
I cried and cried,
our baby was dead.
I'm sorry I killed him,
It wasn't my fault.
My body, My enemy,
I did nothing wrong.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
I can't take it back.
But I need you to know,
that I it wasn't an act,
of revenge or rebellion.
It was an accident,
I didn't mean it,
I needed him.
Now that you're back,
I can't let you go.
and next time im offered,
a drink I promise I'll say no.